Diary of a stalker, p.1
Diary of a Stalker, page 1
DIARY OF A STALKER
ELECTA ROME PARKS
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Table of Contents
Title Page
Dedication
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
STALKING BEHAVIOR
PROLOGUE
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
Chapter 33
Chapter 34
Chapter 35
Chapter 36
Chapter 37
Chapter 38
Chapter 39
Chapter 40
QUESTIONS FOR DISCUSSION
Teaser chapter
Copyright Page
DEDICATION
To all who have helped keep my
dream alive ...
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
I’m back! It has been over two years since my last novel dropped. I’ve had my ups and downs (don’t we all?), but through it all, I survived. I didn’t look back, arose triumphant and never stopped writing; it’s ingrained in my spirit. And I didn’t forget you—my loyal readers.
Thank you to all the readers who supported my previous works and who continued to e-mail and contact me via MySpace.com and Facebook.com, all asking the same question: When is your next book coming out?
Well, here it is. You are holding it in your hands. The wait is over! As usual, hold on tight for a wild, crazy ride. I so enjoy entertaining you guys and as always, I welcome your feedback. If you enjoy Diary of a Stalker, please spread the word—tell a friend or two or three (smile). Word of mouth sells books and this industry does not permit any half-stepping.
I’d be remiss if I didn’t thank the following people who are forever believing in my talent, my dream, and me. Even when my faith falters, theirs never does. For that, I am forever grateful and always touched. Much love to my hubby, Nelson Parks; Brandon and Briana (my children); Tresseler Byrd, DaJuan Crooms, Jordan Rome, Laymon Taylor, Sharron Nuckles, Mardessa Smith and Leida Speller. I love you guys more than you’ll ever know.
Special thanks goes out to my agent, Portia Cannon and to my new publishing family, Urban Renaissance. This is a new beginning ... Let’s make it happen. I’m a firm believer that everything happens for a reason.
To the online literary organizations that have promoted my books, thank you sincerely from the bottom of my heart: APOOO, RAW-SISTAZ, AALBC, Mosaic Books, The Grits, Disilgold.com, ChickLitGurrl, EDC Creations and Sormag. I realize I couldn’t get the word out without you. You are the true literary ambassadors.
To the book club members (too many to name and you know who you are) who have welcomed me into your homes and hearts, much love and appreciation. You’ve warmed my heart with your unconditional support. I have enough wonderful memories to take me through another lifetime—all from women (and a few men) who embraced me with open arms. Didn’t we have fun?
To my author friends: Cheryl Robinson, thank you for the many phone conversations and pep talks. You are one of the most positive people I’ve had the pleasure of knowing. Eric Pete, Cydney Rax, Mary Morrison, Marissa Monteilh and Dar-rien Lee: Thank you for the information sharing and being all around “good people.”
If I have forgotten anyone, please charge it to my head and not to my heart. The dream lives on; in my heart and soul, and with God on my side, all things are possible. Amen. First, we have to ask for it, see it, and believe it. Then it will come.
Again, to my readers, I love you guys! But you already know that. Until our next journey together, peace and abundant blessings.
Much love, Electa
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STALKING BEHAVIOR
• Watch
• Follow
• Harass
• Threaten
• Loiter
• Vandalize
• Assault
• Physical
• Sexual
• Emotional
• Make unwanted telephone calls (land or cell phone)
• Send unwanted mail
• Leave unwanted gifts or packages
• Cyber Stalk:
• Repeatedly e-mail
• Impersonate in chat rooms, e-mails, or Web sites
• Fraudulent online behavior
PROLOGUE
Darkness surrounded her with a thick cloak of protection. Shadows bounced and ricocheted off the walls. She embraced it with open arms, like welcoming a long lost friend back into the fold.
Silence. She felt safe now. While most people gravitated toward the light, she embraced the night, the cover of darkness. From experience, she knew that deeds not meant to be seen or heard were best carried out in the deep, secretive confines of the night.
Quietly and painfully slow, she crept out of the shadows, cautiously pushed clothes aside, opened the closed closet door and exited with precision. Her footsteps were deliberate and calculated. She knew every creak and crevice from memory. She walked with the confident stride of someone who was comfortable with her surroundings.
Ever so cautiously, she pushed the closet door open, just an inch. Stopped and listened. Then another inch. Then another. Silence, except for the even sound of breathing. She knew he was a deep sleeper, but she still didn’t want to take any chance of him waking up. Tonight wouldn’t be the night when she became careless. Even though she had been here before, numerous times, this was the first time with him being inside the house.
With the slinkiness and sneakiness of a feline stalking her prey, she moved from inside the closet to the master bedroom. Stopped just short of the massive bed and simply watched. Watched and reveled in the closeness they shared. Being in the same space with him thrilled her.
She had to force herself to breathe because he took her breath away. Every time. He did it for her. If only he would love her back. Even if it were only with a quarter of the love she felt for him ... she’d still be satisfied. He slept on his back, breathing evenly, legs sprawled wide, with a thin sheet pulled up to his waist. She knew that underneath he was completely nude.
It took all she had not to reach out and touch him. She was so close, yet so far away. In her mind, he was absolutely perfect. Perfect for her. Her eyes eagerly and greedily took him in. Ravished him with her deep carnal yearning.
Why couldn’t he simply love her back? This question played out in her mind over and over again, each and every day. Crippling her. Crushing her confidence. Making her crazy. Crazy like a loon. Sometimes she hated him. Hated him with a devastating passion. Those were the days she wanted to do something bad to him. Wanted to hurt him. Make him pay for not loving her.
Tonight, she simply watched. She stood there for hours and watched him peacefully sleep. If he had awakened and looked a few feet in front of him, he would have easily spotted her. Her desire to be near him overrode her fear of being caught.
Once she had her fill of him, she silently crept down the stairwell and out the front door, quietly closing it behind her. The next morning he would be none the wiser. Only the faint smell of her perfume would remain. He’d imagine he dreamt of a dark figure towering over him. Watching. And waiting. Waiting until it was time.
Chapter 1
PILAR
I’m your #1 fan.
It’s funny how one’s life can forever be changed with the utterance of four simple words: I’m your #1 fan. Well, actually, they weren’t spoken, but sent to my favorite male author, Xavier Preston, by way of e-mail. Man, I love the World Wide Web.
I couldn’t believe it; I had recently finished reading his latest national bestseller, Secret Desires, and to put it mildly, I was simply blown away. I felt like the main character was speaking directly to me, like she was inside my brain, picking it apart, piece-by-piece. I could relate to the storyline ... totally ...and the ending was spectacular, took my breath away. Secret Desires stayed with me, languishing inside my soul, like a sweet kiss that lingers into the early morning hours as dawn approaches.
Even though I am an avid reader—I should be since I’m a freelance writer—I typically do not contact authors about their books. I don’t get caught up in the entire groupie side of the literary industry. Yes, it exists! Surprise, surprise! There is an entire circle of women all across the country, sometimes entire book clubs, who follow the lives and movement of African American male writers the same way groupies chase after rappers, rock stars, athletes and actors.
In the book industry, it is just a bit more subtle. For example, the book club president might fly the handsome, fine, articulate male author into her city for the weekend, to discuss his most recent hot release at the monthly book club meeting and to perhaps get the added bonus of getting up close and personal between the sheets. It happens.
For me, however, this was different; Xavier Preston made a lasting impression. Generally, it took a lot to impress me because I wasn’t into the ordinary and I was determined to tell him how impressed I was. That is, after I went out and purchased all his previous novels. I had a bit of catching up to do.
A week later, after devouring his other six novels from cover to cover like a delicious gourmet meal, savoring every word, I knew I had to make contact. I simply had an unrelenting urge to speak with him. I couldn’t get his lyrical, rhythmic, flowing words out of my head. This man moved me. Moved me like I had never been moved before. I felt a connection. A deep connection.
Early one morning, before I began writing an article for one of the local magazines I frequently wrote for, I e-mailed Xavier Preston my sincere, honest thoughts.
Mr. Preston, I’m your #1 fan. I know you hear that all the time from readers, but I really, truly am. Your characters stay with me long after I’ve consumed the last page of your books. I never want your stories to end; they move me. You are super-talented and put these other authors to shame. I’d love for you to autograph my books. By the way, I have all your novels. When will you be in Atlanta? A true, die-hard fan, Pilar.
Much to my surprise and pleasure, a couple of days later, I received a simple response.
Pilar, what a lovely name. Thank you for the sweet e-mail. I’m so pleased you’ve enjoyed my books over the years. I’d love to meet you as well. I enjoy meeting and greeting my readers. I will be signing at Medu Bookstore, at 5:00 P.M. next Saturday at Greenbriar Mall. Please, stop by if you get the opportunity. I would love to see you there. Xavier.
With a pounding heartbeat, I couldn’t believe what I was reading and I re-read it a few more times for clarity. I wanted to make sure I was reading correctly that Xavier Preston asked to meet me. Me. Next weekend couldn’t arrive soon enough.
It was Friday afternoon, a week after I had received Xavier’s e-mail, and I was lying across my bed, admiring the author photo of Xavier on the back cover of his debut title, outlining his features with my index finger. He had such soulful, penetrating brown eyes and the sexiest pair of dimples I had ever seen. Such a handsome man. I was so caught up in looking at the picture that I almost forgot I had Leeda on the phone. Leeda and I had been friends since my days in Baltimore. I moved to Atlanta almost four years ago. Had to get out of Baltimore. Held too many memories, most of them bad.
“Pilar, for the life of me, I can’t understand why you are so excited about meeting this author. My God, he’s only an author. It’s not like he’s Jay-Z or Denzel,” she exclaimed in her usual authoritative sounding voice, with a bit of amusement.
I sighed inwardly because Leeda didn’t understand, or maybe couldn’t understand, no matter how many times or how hard I tried to explain it to her.
“Xavier gets me. Period. He gets me. Read Secret Desires and you’ll understand. It’s as if he patterned the main character after me. Like he peeked inside my bedroom window and started writing. It’s almost eerie. I have never met this man a day in my life, but it’s like he reached inside my mind and penned my thoughts on paper.”
“Pilar, there are many women who think exactly as you do. They are looking for a handsome soul mate and think there is only one true love for them. You aren’t the only woman in the world who is a hopeless romantic. Your thoughts are not unique in that aspect.”
Leeda could never understand, so I simply gave up trying to convince her that this was different. Xavier was different; I could feel it deep in my bones.
“Well, it won’t hurt anything for me to attend the signing, after all, he did invite me. I can at least get my books autographed. Years from now, who knows, they might be very valuable.”
“True. Just don’t go there with expectations that are only in your mind,” Leeda said.
“Whatever,” I stated with an exasperated sigh.
“Pilar, don’t get so defensive. You know how you are. We’ve discussed it before. Every man you meet who is kind to you is not the one. I don’t want to see you hurt again.”
“Please, let’s not even go there,” I said.
“Okay, if you say so. Just remember, life is what you make it. You don’t need a man to make you whole.”
“I know that, but I have a feeling that Xavier Preston is going to change my life for the better,” I stated with a huge smile. I was on a natural high. An Xavier high.
Chapter 2
XAVIER
Never trust a big butt and a smile.
I’ve been in the literary game for several years now, with seven bestselling novels to my name. I figured out a long time ago that I have the gift of gab, of storytelling ... and I love women. All shapes, sizes, colors and ethnicities. I don’t discriminate; I believe in equal opportunity. Becoming a novelist was a natural progression seeing as how I’ve been telling tall tales my entire life. Women purchase most books, which is a good thing since my target market is definitely women, especially African American. If I depended on men for my livelihood, I would literally be a starving artist.
At this stage of the game, I have pretty much seen it all and done it all. If I must say so myself, I’ve led an exciting life. The stories I could tell. However, my “psycho bitch” radar must have been malfunctioning when this chick named Pilar first approached me. Damn, it leaves a sour taste in my mouth just to spit that bitch’s name off of my tongue.
Never in a million years could anyone have told me that sweet face and banging body would spell trouble with a capital T. Never in a million years. I guess it’s true ... never judge a book by its cover. If I knew then what I know now, I would have pressed delete real quick when I received her very first e-mail.
“I’m your #1 fan!” Pilar didn’t send an e-mail; she sent a virus, in the form of her very presence.
So sweet and accommodating—a boost to my already overinflated ego, at least that’s what I’ve been told. I received e-mails like that all the time from adoring female fans, so it never crossed by mind that inviting Pilar to my book signing would set my nightmare into motion, with my life quickly spiraling out of control and Pilar as the driver.
Even if I wrote the events that transpired into one of my novels, no one would believe them. They’d think Pilar was just a fabricated figment of my vivid imagination. Sometimes I think she is. I wake up hoping and praying that she is. However, I’m not that lucky.
I wish ... I wish I could go back and rewrite the storyline, which is my life. Do some line editing and write that crazy-ass bitch out of the major scenes, hell the entire book. No, I’d kill her off in the first couple of chapters. Have her die a slow and torturous death. Yeah, that would make me happy. Very happy indeed.
Now, it’s much too late for that. I have to deal with the consequences of my actions—or lack of. It’s true—that line from an old Bell Biv Devoe song—never trust a big butt and a smile. I’m hardheaded. I had to learn the hard way.
Chapter 3
PILAR
It was on and poppin’ ...
As it quickly approached lunchtime on Saturday, I had probably changed outfits over three or four times. I had to look perfect. I finally decided on a pair of tight fitting designer jeans, the kind that made my butt look bootylicious and a colorful halter-top that showcased my ample breasts to the fullest. After slipping on my earth-toned platform shoes, I was set. Ready for the chase.
I had done my online research. The Internet was my best friend, and now I knew all about Xavier and his life story. I knew Xavier was tall, about six feet, two or three inches. At five feet six inches, I didn’t want to appear to be too short when I first met him. I knew from experience that a lot of tall men didn’t care for much shorter women. Plus, I wanted to be able to stare deep into those sexy brown eyes.
